why are there suddenly 4 people viewing my blog
surely that webcam photo of me in a cloth face mask is not that big of a deal
you’re ALL JEALOUS
thorinbaggins replied to your photo “I don’t think I could be any more attractive right now if I tried. …”
Holy shit I refreshed and just choked on my water GODDAMN SARAH.
Well, I can’t blame you for getting choked up. My astonishing beauty at this moment in time would leave many breathless.
I won’t change myself to suit your standards.
I won’t be the person you want me to be.
I won’t act how you want me to act.
I wont say what you want me to say.
I will be who I want,
Act how I want
and say what I want.
I am going to be me despite whatever you think.
Maybe you should start reflecting on yourself,
to see why what I do means so much
that you feel you must change me.
(NB: the posts have been made private.)
I’m apparently a terrible person because I think deliberately lying in front of a moving truck in a driveway, then complaining at the driver for not seeing you and running you over (but not severely hurting/killing you) is stupid.
Who, pray tell, made this educated assessment? A chatroom acquaintance who hasn’t known me in years (actually, ever) and yet thinks they’re suddenly part of my life because they follow my Tumblr.
This is a social media platform, one I use as a casual setting in which to vent and share stuff I’m interested in with like-minded people. It’s not something I take too seriously, even though the bullshit folks pull on here can be stressful. There are times when I’m going to speak flippantly, rather than giving a measured and considerate response. I’m not at school, I’m not at work. On a personal blog, I shouldn’t have to be 100% diplomatic.
After a lifetime of incredibly low self-esteem, I realised it’s okay to love myself. It’s okay to grow at my own rate, regardless of what others think. And because I came from a dark and lonely place to reach this conclusion, I am now fiercely protective of myself, and more discerning about whose input I take in and whose I ignore.
You might be surprised to hear that in my professional and personal life outside the internet, I’m known to readily welcome criticism - in fact, I actively seek it. I’m introspective, and I appreciate hearing what people think as an educational tool and a way of moving forward. Sometimes, you do need a second opinion. But feedback is only valid when it’s based on something. Online I probably don’t want your view on what kind of person I am, or should be, if you don’t actually know me. My friends (some of whom use this website) are honest and straightforward people, and they don’t mince words. They’ve known me for a long time, warts ‘n’ all. So when I already have a vast network of people whose opinion I respect and trust, I don’t need the two cents of nobodies on the internet.
I’m not a perfect person, for sure, but I’m smart. I’m funny. I’m loyal. And I’m a good person, or at least as good as a human can realistically be.
Just so we’re clear, y’hear?
We now return to our regularly scheduled programming. :)
people always seem to pick stressful times in my life to come out of the woodwork and start haranguing me over stupid shit